Three in One And Half Year

It started when i was in form 2.. i still remember, me having a program at school. well something like a camp as a preparation for our PMR next year. Then a teacher came and whisper to me.

"Ainul, one of your relatives in Pahang had passed away. Your father just called the school to inform this to u. U better go to ur dorm and pack ur stuff, ur father will pick u up father this."

and i was like..... What? Who?.. i dont feel like i want to cry.. cuz i dont really know who..

i packed my bag and wait till my father came.. when he came i ask him who.. it was my cousin who only a nine years boy.. it was really shocked.. when we arrived there.. i saw my aunt in a very bad condition.. she was totally completely in sorrow.. well, the funeral was gone really well and of course it was a big lost for us.

- six month later-

i was at home.. watching tv.. and i heard my mom said... "he is in critical stage" I knew he might follow his brother.. it was my cousin, the younger brother.. i cant stop praying for him.. he only 5 years old.. and her mother just lost his brother and now he about to.. my family decided to go back home that night immediately.. and need to stay with my sister at home as i need to go to the school for submitting my assignment. then about 2 o'clock we got this news.. he passed away.. another dark moments.. everyone was crying, red eye, sorrow, no laughing and funeral..

- six month later-

i was having an event at school.. and it was really fun.. when it was ended.. i felt uneasy.. not in a good mood.. well i need to attend a rehearsal for a competition and i felt like i dont want to.. i argued with the team.. i said i dont want to join the competition and eveyone was forced me for not leaving.. i sat on the staircase crying hardly.. i dont know why.. that was really not me.. crying for a small matter.. crying hardly until i had a pair of panda's eye..
1 o'clock in the morning, the warden called me.. he said my father was here.. and my father said.. grandpa had passed away.. i cant stop crying.. another dark memories.. another funeral.. sad people, crying sound.. all that things happened again..

i learned that everyone can die anytime, anywhere include me.. all we need to do is just prepare for that day.. and never stop loving the person u loved.. cuz u would never find any replacement for them..